Hi, my name is Amy and I'm addicted to food.
Jesus tells us the truth will set us free, and I've been seeing that to be true in many ways along this weight loss journey. Lies, deceipt, and even ommissions will only get in the way of success. When I am open, honest, and acknowledge my weaknesses only then am able to let it go, seek the help I need, and move to healthier place.
I am addicted to food. I turn to food when I'm happy, sad, celebrating, mourning, bored, busy, etc etc etc. No matter the circumstances or situation my mind is constantly focused on food. When is my next meal/snack, what is it going to be, will there be food left in the breakroom, do I have what I want at home/work... It is all consuming and in a weird way comforting. I love food. I could eat all day from the time I wake up to the time I go to sleep. I could eat sweets, chips, crackers, cereal, sandwiches, vegetables, fruits, salads, ANYTHING at any time. The weird thing is, I don't want all of this food because I'm hungry. When I'm physically hungry (and not just thirsty or bored) I actually do not feel like eating at times.
Nancy gave me a challenge of sorts in which every day the first thing I need to do is say to myself, my name is Amy and I am a food addict. Then, I am to give it over to God and ask Him to fill me and satiate my hunger, to take away the desire and physical "need" to eat to excess.
Today is the first day I've done this, and I have to say it does make me stop and think about why I want to eat. I had a filling, yummy breakfast and lunch. I treated myself to a square of dark chocolate. And I'm satisfied. I found myself craving something crunchy and salty. I sat there, thinking about this, and said to myself, I'm not hungry, I'm just wanting to eat. Lord, please take away this desire to binge.
And you know what, I was able to focus on something else and will now make it to my appointed snack time without having indulged in something that would have made me feel guilty later.
God is good, and He is seeing me through this one moment at a time.
Place In My Head
4 years ago
I'm glad you're trying to tackle the addiction side of things! I've been using an addiction recovery workbook my church has to help me in that aspect. I don't use it as much as I should though! However, since I've started using Bios Life Slim in my life, I truly feel I've been able to break that addiction. I've also been able to stop my emotional eating. I no longer turn to food & feel it has no influence on me anymore. I now eat to live instead of living to eat! I feel so free & better than I have in YEARS now! Best of luck on your journey to conquer the addiction!!
ReplyDeleteGood stuff, Amy! It takes a lot of courage to say those words!
ReplyDeleteYou know, there are a lot of emotional eaters, out there, who will not admit they have a food addiction. I was one of them.
I have found Celebrate Recovery (and our church's Discover Recovery) to be very helpful. We're just a bunch of believers with hurts, hangups or habits (in my case, all three) who don't judge, but are transparent with each other. E-mail me on FB, if interested, and congratulations on how far you have already come!
Thank you for sharing that Amy..so many of us are going through the same thing. You enjoy a little bit of victory and the addiction resurfaces. It is a constant battle. We are all praying for you. I know the Lord is doing an awesome work through you & Nancy!
ReplyDelete"He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." Philippians 1:6
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Amy I really admire you . I also need help and some advices. Your example is the best for me couse I'm also a bit sedentary and i like sweets and lot of junks.I would like to keep in touch with you if you agree and you don't mind. My adress is sound_xcess_xz@yahoo.com. Please write me and maybe we can talk soon.
ReplyDeleteIm looking forward for your e-mail.
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