Nancy shared a great quote with me the other night that really hit home. She had shared it with me before, but for some reason it resonated with me much more deeply this time around. She said (and I'm paraphrasing) -- attempt something where failure is inevitable UNLESS God steps in.
The last few weeks I just could not for the life of me figure out why I was having such a hard time staying on track. I wasn't deviating from the plan, but I wanted to, and I was craving so many things that I hadn't been before. And then it hit me... Up to now I had pretty much been doing all of this in my own strength. It was the "honeymoon" phase so to speak. There was all of the excitement from the show, then the race, and so many things to distract me that I barely realized 12 weeks had passed and it was such a blur.
Now, I am feeling those hunger pangs. I am feeling those rebellious thoughts of just eating whatever I want. The novelty of looser clothes is waning... But I have to keep going.
And I realized, it's hard because I am attempting the impossible. 95% of people in my shoes FAIL. So what was so different about me? What makes me a part of that 5% who succeed?
I have a God and Heavenly Father who says that through Him ALL things are POSSIBLE. He has promised to give me the desires of my heart. But, I have to trust in Him. I have to lean on Him. I have to submit to Him.
On my own I am nothing, and I WILL fail as I have time and time before.
I cannot do this in my own strength, because my flesh is SO weak. But, through HIM I will succeed and be the woman He created me to be.
This has been very heavy on my heart because truly finding the WHY behind our eating is so very important. And once we do know why, we then have to submit that to Him or we will forever be in this death trap of emotional eating. This viscious circle of over eating then feeling guilty, then overeating because we feel guilty and on and on...
Why is it so hard to rest in the freedom He gives us? Why do I feel like I have to be this perfect person, when He tells me I'm not and that it's ok because I have Him.
Still working through this one, but enjoying the journey and all of it's revelations. :)
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