Enough

I went for a brisk walk with my little dog Maggie last night and decided to take my iPod with me and listen to some worship music. I was walking along enjoying the fresh air and the good music when it hit me during Chris Tomlin's song Enough that I needed to listen to it one more time and really, REALLY listen to it. It applies so well to my food addiction and controlling nature... Here are the words:

All of You is more than enough for all of me

For every thirst and every need

You satisfy me with Your love

And all I have in You is more than enough

You are my supply

My breath of life

And still more awesome than I know

You are my reward

worth living for

And still more awesome than I know

All of You is more than enough for all of me

For every thirst and every need

You satisfy me with Your love

And all I have in You is more than enough

You’re my sacrifice

Of greatest price

And still more awesome than I know

You’re the coming King

You are everything

And still more awesome than I know

More than all I want

More than all I need

You are more than enough for me

More than all I know

More than all I can say

You are more than enough for me

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It just hit me, smack in the face... He is more than enough for everything I could ever want and need. He is my supply, my breath, my reward, my satisfaction, my EVERYTHING. Or at least He should be. I have replaced all of those with earthly things (mostly food) though. When I am wanting love, attention, support, release, care, etc, etc, etc... I turn to food. It can be healthy food, it can be crappy food, it can be sweet, salty, crunchy, liquid, anything to fill me up. It's gotten to where it's such a habit, or really, an addiction, that it doesn't even cross my mind that this is what I'm doing...

My focus now is to do what Nancy advised when I first started this journy: take EVERY thought captive. Whether it's a negative thought about myself, or if I'm feeling depressed, sad, lonely, happy, celebratory, whatever... Take it captive and really process why I want to eat something in relation to those thoughts... Am I actually hungry, or am I just reacting to the feelings?

I know that this will not happen overnight, BUT it's a huge step in transforming my mind on this journey to transform my body.