The last few days have been a little rough for me emotionally. I think it has a little to do with hormones, a lot to do with a few sleepless nights, and a little everyday life thrown in the mix. :)
I always hold myself to a higher standard than anyone else... and lately that has certainly been the case. I have overindulged in dinner the past two nights. I woke up this morning feeling fat and bloated. I talked to Nancy and realized that part of my bloated feeling is probably due to all the lentils and the chili I've had the last few nights. LOL
Something else I realized today, thanks to Nancy, is that it is ok to feel down. It's ok to be human. I'm not going to feel fabulous every single day, and that's ok. This is a hard road, and a very long journey. It took a while, but I think the honeymoon phase is over. :)
While it may be ok to feel a bit down at times, it's NOT ok to beat myself up OR to wallow in sadness. I had forgotten to take captive every negative thought, turn it over to my Heavenly Father, and then replace it with a positive thought. Nancy reminded me to laugh, and enjoy my day, and stay positive. I think I got so caught up in everything else that I forgot all of that!
So, yes, today I was not feeling it (or yesterday...), but it's ok. I'll get through it, especially with the love, prayers, and support from Nancy, and all of my friends and family. :)
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