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Monday, October 26, 2009

Waiting for the other shoe to drop...

So it's day 5 of my new journey with Nancy and Dr. Oz and so far it has not been as hard as I always imagined it would be. Maybe it is all of the support I am getting from Nancy, my family, my friends and coworkers... Maybe I was just ready to make the change... Whatever it is, I'm just glad it's not as agonizing and difficult as I had made it out to be.

Don't get me wrong, I still want chocolate and subs and ice cream, and doughnuts, and bagels, and cookies, and etc etc etc. I want to eat and over eat. Food is on my mind 24/7 just like it was before I met Dr. Oz and Nancy and made the decision to really do this. But for some reason, it seems easier. I don't feel alone. I don't feel deprived when I turn down that cookie or popcorn or cake, but rather, I feel empowered because I made the choice. The food does not control me.

So now I'm worried... LOL I'm worried that I'm being naive. In my mind I hear "Of course it's easy, Amy! You've only been doing it for 5 days. You're still riding the high!" What do I do when the high is gone, when the memory of the cameras and lights fade? I know that I will have Nancy to cheer me on every day when we talk. And that is totally encouraging!

I guess I'm just hoping that it doesn't get harder than it already is. Every day I struggle with something. Sometimes it's a little something, other times it's a big something. Everytime it's a food something. LOL

I'm facing my fears of giving up food as a comfort and it's scaring the crap out of me. It has always been my best friend and my worst enemy. I'm learning how to choose the good foods, the fuel I need for my body to work at its best. I'm even comfortable talking about food with other people -- a real first!

I started this post because I was feeling apprehensive, and now, as I finish my stream of thought, I realize that I am feeling confident. I can do this! I will do this! Wow, my whole perspective has shifted. My focus is not on waiting for failure, it is now on enjoying my success. That is awesome! :)

1 comment:

  1. Oh, Amy! You are saying what I feel. Sometimes I feel so alone in this!